Log

I feel perfectly composed and still when I'm on the move but yet not doing anything with effort, my eyes half closed, unblinking, staring into everything and nothing in particular. I am silent and unmoving, and my body goes into rest, a quiet half sleep. But then due to the restfulness, my mind goes into overdrive, high-strung and unstable, and before long my thoughts are jumping from one thing to another, filling the gaps in my memories I thought I'd forgotten. My source of entertainment in an otherwise dreary day, in a dry wait to get to my destination.Going into this trance like state is part of me, but somehow sometimes it scares me.

Then I would wake up when the bus conductor calls, yelling it's time for a toilet break, but it feels like I haven't been sleeping because my mind is furiously working, but yet I feel happy and rested, but my daydreams have me on a high wire and I keep thinking about them in order not to let them slip away. It works, but only just.

Now I'm trying to recollect them after hours of being truly busy and burnt out with fatigue, but no, it's not coming back. The thoughts that converge in my brain in this state of mine have gone. Oh well.

Anyway, I'm back from Malaysia. Hope you guys had a great Christmas. :)